Book of Jamez

55 y/o malcontent, something of a writer

Category: work

  • Jacquelyn's Soul

    Yesterday, Jacquelyn Wilkerson became an angel.

    Jacquelyn fought for over two years with Breast Cancer… at the end of her struggle God called her home. Jacquelyn was one of those women whose life was a dedication to the Lord, she was a minister with her church and always had a hand in the Lord’s work.

    I’ll always remember her big hair, colorful clothes and long nails. The way her voice seemed to boom when she talked, and the way her eyes seemed to touch evey soul; you knew she was there. God blessed the people of Family Connections, and her family with her spirit and her presence for far too short a period.

    Today I pray that we don’t lose another, my heart can’t take it.

  • Angels

    My friend Debra’s mother became an angel on Friday. While I never met her, if Debra is any indication then she was a truly remarkable woman. I imagine that Debra has the best qualities of her mother: God fearing, loving, beautiful, heartful, thoughtful, caring, selfless, and blessed.

    I know Debra’s family has been on the prayer list of several people for a while now, and I certainly hope it continues. Debra and her family will need our support, our love and our prayers during this trying time.

    I like to think that heaven is a little brighter now, because of the loving smile of Debra’s mother.

  • Weekly Update 8/16/2005 Insomnia Edition

    Because U Demanded It… Edition

    Stressful Events on the Horizon
    8/17/2005 Driving to VA Beach
    8/17/2005 Picking up $300.00 in school books
    8/18/2005 First Day of School only one class: Math
    8/23/2005 More school… a whole week of it! OY

    Restless nights…
    And box filled days make up my life now… I toss and turn in my bed and worry about little things, big things (NO, I’m not dating anyone), and everything… then I remember that I should have prayed, so I say my prayer to the big guy:

    “Dad, it’s me Jamez. Please take this away from me, I know it’ll be better in your hands than mine.” and lo and behold… it’s gone… for a moment, but I take it right back and fiddle with it…

    I’m a fool!

    It’s true, I know to leave it alone… but it’s hard. I’ll be the first to tell you: If you pray why worry, and if you worry why pray… sometimes easier said than done.

    Cat Behaviors
    My little girl Mouse, has an odd reaction when I shave. As soon as I start to put on the shaving cream she starts to cry. Not a regular meow, but a whinning one… that gets on my nerves… and she wants attention at that moment too… like she’s trying to keep me from shaving… weird isn’t it? Both cats are loving the empty bookcases… I’ll have to anchor them to make sure they don’t topple over on em.

    Connections
    Not sure why, but this is what happened today when I set up the electricity for my new apartment. They start to offer to hook up everything else… cable, phone, newspapers… everything… I’m adamant… that’s ok… I’ll do it later… she’s like: but you need cable TV… really sir it’s no problem we can do it all right now… it was like when the DNC calls for money or they want that survey done… very annoying.

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    Words to live by:
    Your fences need to be horse-high, pig tight and bull-strong.
    Life is simpler when you plow around the stump.
    A bumble bee is considerably faster than a John Deere tractor.
    Words that soak into your ears are whispered…not yelled.
    Meanness don’t jes’ happen overnight.
    Forgive your enemies. It messes up their heads.
    Do not corner something that you know is meaner than you.
    It don’t take a very big person to carry a grudge.
    You cannot unsay a cruel word.
    Every path has a few puddles.
    Timing has a lot to do with the outcome of a rain dance.
    If you find yourself in a hole, the first thing to do is stop diggin’.

    Funny
    New Birds & Bees…
    The mystery is gone … How was I born? The little boy asks his father – Daddy, how was I born? Dad responds, ah, my son, I guess one day you will need to find out anyway! Well, you see, your Mom and I first got together in a chat room on MSN. Then I set up a date via e-mail with your Mom and we met at a cyber-cafe. We sneaked into a secluded room, where your mother agreed to a download from my hard drive. As soon as I was ready to upload, we discovered that neither one of us had used a firewall, and since it was too late to hit the delete button, nine months later a blessed little Popup appeared and said: You’ve got male!

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    I’ll have a post of the first day of school soon, take care til then!

  • Fears

    Here’s where things get scary… We are now where the rubber meets the road…
    The money is starting to add up in my head: $300 for books, $400 deposit me, $300 deposit cats, truck rental, cable internet connection, a bike…

    It’s hard to look at these numbers and think it’s going to be ok. Suzanne reminds me that I’ve been broke, I can do broke and happy… actually broke and happy works a lot better than not broke and happy.

    I’ve got to turn my focus back to where it needs to be: God, AA, and helping others… well, I’m not sure how much time there will be for that but I’ll do my best. I am actually looking forward to new meetings in the Va Beach area, and perhaps I’ll even bother to find a sponsor.

    It will all be ok, and the best thing I can do for myself right now is put one foot in front of the other… not six weeks into the future.

  • Children's Tears

    My last day of work at Children’s.
    Before I could even make my pot of coffee I saw it… a gift bag from Chen. Pencils, pens, notebooks, folders and more- almost all with a Spiderman theme. I was brought to tears (just now again too, as I write this). After the coffee was brewed I cried over the first cup just thinking of all the wonderful people that I had the opportunity to work with and all the families we helped. Phyllis came in shortly after that with a backpack and lunchbox… also Spiderman themed.

    Jen called to wish me well, Albert, Erika, Julie, Julia… people I haven’t seen in a while, but love so much still… made me cry again there that day (and again while I write this).

    It was a useless day at work, there was no work done by me that day, besides the last morning anouncements. I had people to say goodbye to, people to hug and cry to, people I love.

    I had a farewell at the hospital, with people that meant things to me invited (and people that didn’t too :-)). It was bitter sweet seeing all those people and knowing some of them I may not see in a long while. I had wished Natella, Tamara, and Tammy were there but alas it was not to be.

    The farewell outside of the office happened this Friday, and I was truly surprised at the number of people that showed up. Staci and Jen were there, Gerry, Claire, Ann and John, Gary, Jean, Courtney… o so many. It’s hard to be the center of attention… it’s hard to say goodbye to so very many special people.

    I look at Jordan and remember Zelda had just had him when she was interviewed for the job. I look at Lailah and want to cry, she used to fall asleep in my lap at work.

    My heart is full – the only reason I know that I can love more is because of the love I have seen in you. My life and my soul are the better for having worked with each and everyone of you.