Book of Jamez

55 y/o malcontent, something of a writer

Author: Jamez

  • Individual Writing Conferences

    ENG 112, today we had Individual Writing Conferences, to let each student know how they are doing in class.

    I sat down across from Professor Theile, written works collected in my folder, my journal ready for his inspection.

    “You’re getting an A in this class.” he says “Do you have any questions?”

    “No,” I say, and then think… yes. “Why am I getting an A?” I press

    “You’re a great writer and you participate in class.” he answers.

    “Yet, none of my papers have been given an ‘A’”

    He assures me that my poem, Foster Home is an A poem, and after looking at my work again, says this is great work you have no worries.

    OK, I guess he can live…. for now!

  • My Pa

    I don’t know how old he is, but today is my Pa’s birthday.
    The only real father I’ve ever had
    always there for me
    showed me things I didn’t know
    got me to mow lawns
    made me laugh
    taught me the value of naps, procrastination and eating

    I guess it’s appropriate that my poem “Foster Home” was read today in class, and given an asterisk saying I should have it published.

    Happy Birthday Pa, I love and miss you.

  • Fresh Coffee and Broad Grins

    It’s cold and I’m tired, hat pulled down low over my eyes I step into the 7-11. I can smell the coffee brewing right away, my destination is just ahead I can almost taste the coffee scalding its way down my throat.

    “Hi.” comes a voice, through the fog that is my morning. I glance up and see a handsome man, nice goatee and broad smile, he works here, I see the 7-11 name marks him Ray. “Hi.” I say in return.

    Fill up my coffee, two packets of Splenda and three creams, stirring them together till the color is a milky brown; I know it’s still to hot to drink, but God I want to, place one of their lids on and head toward the counter to pay for it.

    “I love your shirt.” Ray says, I have to look down, so tired I’m not sure what I’m wearing.

    “Oh, yeah this is one of my favorites,” one of my many Superman shirts, this one portrays him on a comic book cover, “I have a tattoo to match.” I say and start to roll up the sleeve of my jacket.

    “Your hat too,” he says, I realize I’m also wearing the hat and feel the fool. He probably thinks I’m a dork, “are you a collector? It looks good on you.”

    “Thanks.”

    “That’ll be $1.53.” he says, still grinning broadly.

    I pull two wrinkled one dollar bills out of my wallet and hand them to him, he punches some numbers into the register the drawer pops out and he slides the money into its place.

    “People collect stuff, it’s cool. I collect some stuff too…” he says and closes the drawer. Suddenly he realizes my hand is out waiting for my change and his grin disappears, and his face turns crimson. “I’m sorry, can’t believe I did that.” and hands me the 0.47 cents he owes me.

    “Thanks, I hope you have a great day.” I smile and start to walk out.

    “You too, you too” he says as the door slowly closes.

    As I enter the car, I turn one last time… there he is looking at me, that broad grin fresh on his face.

  • Spring Break

    The beach, the sun; scantilly clad, tan men …. ah, Spring Break.

    But not for me, I’m old and in Chesapeake, where its a little too chilly to wear a bathing suit outside. But there is good news, the trees are all blosoming… eyes are all irritated and itchy, sneezing… ah, spring.

  • DJ

    his tongue drops brandy on my lips
    heart pulses
    hard, hot, steel rod
    in my hand

    trace fingers over silken chest
    sweat trickles, salty sweet
    migrate to manhood
    thirst, hunger, greed… or need

    panting, groaning
    twin bed creaking
    pain and heat,
    friction so sweet

    legs a vice around him
    pulling him deeper, harder
    tempo, crescendo
    white lava spurts

    he growls and thrusts
    pain and need fulfilled
    with lust

  • An Hour Away

    It’s Wednesday, an hour away from Test II in Algebra II…
    I’ve done my homework, studied and studied some more, but still feel very unsure of myself.
    Math people, I’m convinced, are from another planet… or just plain crazy. Who else would find 600 different ways to add 2+2?

    Handed in my three original poems, two of which have been posted on here, the last one I’ll probably post when I get home.

    The only good part of today-it’s the last day before spring break… an entire week off from school… woo hoo!!!

  • Children's Hospital of Hopes and Dreams

    Rainbow halls and cubical stalls
    Ms Elliott’s smiling face
    Pink Flamingo’s in Chen’s space

    Nurses to the left, hearts full of love
    “Hello Mary Lou”, he coos
    Kim and Keetra, Diana too

    Marianne, Sonia and Donna right there
    Purple office is Ann’s, always will be
    CDC peeps come next, Von, Waldo and Z

    Social Workers en mass, near the fax
    Courtney, Allie, Sarah
    Albert, Cardia and Rashida

    Jacquelyn’s gone now, sent to heaven…
    Project CHAMP is down the hall
    With Denise and Phyllis, and Donna’s stall

    Debra having to hear me sing,
    Julia sneaking in the back way
    A different intern every day

    Janique and Denise, come and go
    Ebony behind the curtain… snore
    Oh so very many more…

    Five years is a long time
    To share hopes and dreams
    I sure miss my team

  • Recovery…

    I’m getting the impression from the news media that New Orleans is ok, as long as people can get drunk and rowdy! Hell, as long as we have alcohol and women flashing their tits in public… the American dream is still alive and well.

  • Curious George

    “People don’t need to worry about security.” George W. Bush

    Ah, but we do Monkey Boy! You and your people have been telling us to worry about security for 6 odd years… You can’t have it both ways! We can’t rely on Dick Cheney for security, he only shoots American’s.

    Attempts by you and Brokeback Cheney to get your terrorist/oil rich friends access to our ports will fail… I hope.

    Yes Mr. President, we have to worry about security, you and Dick are busy shooting old men.

  • foster home

    brown house now blue
    gray hair then and now too
    Ma in rocker knitting
    Pa in recliner

    fear crawls up my spine
    my bags packed, all that is mine
    social worker pressures shoulder
    keeps me from running

    dinner together, conversation and laughter
    alien world, foreign notions – food a plenty
    tears delay that first night,
    though hard fought, buried deep

    rules, responsibility, chores
    wake up myself for school
    wash dishes, mow lawns
    allowance? what’s that?

    foster brother and i
    share smokes and stories
    on the front patio
    now enclosed, then exposed

    three years teach me, show me love me
    five years gone, back i come to make right
    show them i’ve found the light
    love unconditional, no exceptions

    dc bound, to find my way
    just call anytime
    no questions asked
    you can always come home

    breast cancer scare,
    tears unhindered
    stream down my cheeks
    fear strikes deep and hard

    twenty years later, college bound
    ma and pa, rhonda and greg
    come to see the sites,
    nope!
    to see me off, wish me well, show me love

    the family i didn’t choose
    forced upon me by action of youth
    became the one that mattered most
    showed me the truth of love itself