On fire with AA.
I’ve said that about people before, even had it said of me before – usually it’s when they or I am expressing so much gratitude and love for the program that it’s almost too much … like an over sugary dessert, yes it’s sweet but it’s a bit too much almost evangelical. But since the beginning, and I’m taking the liberty of speaking for others here as well (I’ll ask for forgiveness later), there has been some kind of burning since I got to AA.
At first there was just the spark, a spark of hope – the flimsy reed, that gave us a light to walk towards. “Maybe this AA thing can work for me too”
that spark ignites the first flames in AA (No, we’re not speaking specifically of gay men… but maybe them too) – we get a sponsor, we start participating in the meeting and maybe start relating to others experience.
Our sponsors and our group leaders feed that small fire, they put logs and kindling on it – they give us commitments to group and we soon have a hearth, a place where our fire usually burns – a home if you will.
When we finally get it, when the solution encompasses us we burn brighter and brighter, hotter and hotter and attract others, they see this roaring fire and are drawn to it, they want the warmth and comfort that we have created.
Once in a while someone will come along with a poker (mmmmm) and stoke the fire, sending sparks here and there and igniting other flames, a torch has been passed to another who will build their own hearth.
Yet sometimes we can forget to feed the fire, we can forget to participate and keep it going – maybe think the fire will sustain itself – we aren’t sharing anymore, its ours we want to just sit there in the warmth and be comfortable. No logs and the fire starts to die down.
It’s still comforting there, people see the flame and want it, it’s pretty, comforting, attractive – but its slowly becoming smaller and dimmer.
When the wood is burned up and the red glow of the embers is still there, we can still get a little warmth, we can still see the faint glow of hope – but to share it we really need to stoke the fire – we have to have participation and share our fire to keep it strong.
I don’t think there are things that can douse an AA flame once its been started – you hear countless people who go out come back and say they remembered the hope they had found in AA and longed for it. I hope you keep your flames bright and comfortable today – and maybe share a spark.
7 thoughts on “The Fire”
Bravo JP! I am so glad to have you a part of our Home Group. You’re a great example for us new guys and for guys with some time under their belt. I’ll follow the winners and will bring along some kindling.
Thanks Ray, it’s been just what I needed really. I’m glad you were all there for me to find.
You Rock. Stumbled hehehe onto your blog today and Ive enjoyed it so much Ive nominated toy for the sunshine award. you can find more at my blog highonhugs.com. So looking forward to getting to know you better and thanks for the good read today!
I’m so happy you enjoyed the post, it rattled in my head for quite a few days and just had to get out. Thanks for the nomination – i’ll have to figure out what that’s about 🙂
I was confused about it until I read my friends post who nominated me. It’s pretty cool and because of it it got to find a bunch more program friends in cyber world! It would have helped if I shared the proper link which is…
I saw your post on your wall and others posts as a result of that post… which let me follow other blogs I didn’t know about which is great, I’m all about networking and sharing ESH 🙂 thanks Clairey!
You betcha!! Fun huh? Glad to have found another friend on the path!!