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I Became An Old Man
I’m not sure when it happened exactly, but it was just over the last few days that I realized I’ve become an old man.. It’s not just that one of my supervisors and a former cube mate haven’t seen any of the Star Wars movies (I was stunned really – they seem like such good people too) it’s other things over the last month or so. I’m 43, not that terribly old I know but it’s…
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Reimagining How It Works
Tonight at the meeting a guy at his very first meeting was asked to read “How It Works”. This is something most of us hear at almost every meeting we attend. There are folks that brag they can recite it from memory without looking at the book at all. I probably could if hard pressed to do so. It’s one of those things I don’t pay much attention to anymore, l hear it so often that it…
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Emotional Sobriety
Sponsor assignment: Would you give your reflections on what “emotional sobriety” looks like to you? Emotional Sobriety… hmmm First thoughts are it’s about letting go again – I get to a point, on occasion where I think I can steer again and that’s when things start to get out of whack, my emotions go up and down, usually down, and I start to get comfortable in the wrongness. It’s an odd trap where I begin…
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Put the "fun" in Funerals
I’ve been thinking about funerals lately – near death experiences by a couple of folks have put dying in my rotating thought patterns. Then I start thinking about wills and cremation and making sure there is a gold coin in my mouth before I’m burned – just in case I end up at the river Styx and need to pay Charon, being stuck on this side of the river would be rather boring I’d think.…
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Pain For Too Long
I feel proud, manly, strong – probably stupidly so, but I do – when after the examination the doctor says “I usually only see patients with this in the ER! And you’ve had this for a MONTH?!?!” I can’t help it, I want to say “HELL yeah I have! fuckin’ right man!” But then sanity clicks in and looks back at the constant pain, uncomfortableness, lack of sleep and the like and I realize…
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What's a 'Home Group'?
“This is your home group for the next year” he said “What’s a home group?” I asked “That means you’ll be at this meeting every Sunday night – unless there is a funeral, and it better be yours.” That was what my first sponsor told me when I came into the rooms. I took him literally and didn’t miss a single Sunday night that first year – we had a meeting on Christmas day and…
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I Know Better
I always think I know better. It almost doesn’t matter what the case is – I have a better solution than the one you’re suggesting or using. Someone suggests something – I’ll think about it, but I probably already have a plan that’s better than that. For example, going canoeing for the first time outside Washington DC back in 98 or 99 people suggested sunscreen, but I wasn’t a city boy, I could take a little…
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Obsess Much?
I shake hands at meetings. This isn’t really news to anyone who knows me in meetings – I’ve been doing it a long time. Lots of people look forward to shaking my hand too (or so I tell myself). Some folks don’t shake my hand and insist on a hug – makes the meeting feel incomplete to me, I’m considering telling them – “no hand shake, then no hug”. It’s all about me you know……
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