Solitude, My Fortress

I don’t like people. Crowds of people. New people. Old people and Young people. Couples, families (not just mine), adults or children alike. Just in general – people I don’t like them. They make me feel uncomfortable, ill at ease. My skin itches and I want to make them stop looking at me, even if […]

The Journey Out of AA – so far

It’s been a little over five months since I published my story “Walking Away from AA” where I talked about my decision to leave Alcoholics Anonymous after almost 22 years. I stated then that I didn’t have a desire to drink, but I had a desire to be more honest and truthful with all aspects […]

Andre

I use writing as a tool to get things out of my head – ideas, conjecture, stories and memories. I can’t seem to move on from one of these things rattling around in my brain until I set it down on paper. Sometimes it’s just drivel, sometimes it’s quite beautiful – at least to me. I’ve […]

Moved

I am almost all moved in – all the essentials are here: iMac, Superman stuff, clothes, soaps, AppleTV, coffee, insurance magazines, some dishes, too many shoes and me of course. It’s a nice little two bedroom condo – Anne has the bigger room with the attached bathroom. I remembered in the middle of the night […]

Unity.. no thanks, I have plans

I don’t like people. (I frequently say “hate” which might be a strong word) I’ve said that a million times before and it’s still true. One of my bosses says that too – I tell him he doesn’t because he’s so nice to everyone, but he insists that he does. Probably why I like him […]

My Sponsor Wont Shake My Hand

When i first started going to meetings the very first direction I was given by my sponsor was “Shake everyone’s hand before and after the meeting” I wanted to stop going right then, I didn’t want anything to do with these people – I just wanted to learn how to drink like normal people. (surprise, […]

Swings and Belts

I took a rare day off from work to travel with my AA sponsor to Palm Springs – he had agreed to listen to a sales pitch for a timeshare in exchange for a nice weekend at a golf resort. I went to keep him company and had intended to sit by the pool reading […]

Time

I had dinner tonight with an old friend – we both talk about the rapid growth of gray hairs in places we still have hair (that’s old) – and his daughter who might be coming out this way to go to college. He now lives in Maryland, but he’s a friend from WI high school, when I […]

Surprising Beginnings

My sponsor gave me directions when I hired him: 1. Shake everyones hand before and after each meeting 2. Go to the Northside Group every week – no matter what So that’s how I found myself at the Northside meeting on a Sunday night, following sponsor direction I was there and he had assured me […]

Review, Renew, and then Redo

Last year was full of change. I started off the year unemployed had my appendix removed was offered a new job in a new city moved got a car and had to start driving regularly made new friends missed old friends had another surgery got severely depressed  Yeah, it was an interesting year. I look […]